I feel better today. I’ve been focusing on Civil Procedure- although it still is the most difficult, and dull subject ever. The baby has been moving SO MUCH lately- she is very active, especially when I rest on my right side. I think maybe it’s uncomfortable for her when I lay that way- otherwise, why would she squirm so much? I can literally feel her moving her whole body around, and today I saw what looked sort of like a foot sticking out of my side!
I know it’s not technically Mr. Mustard’s first Father’s Day, but we celebrated it as if it were- since she’s technically a person now in many ways (fully formed and just “cooking” a little longer in there). I got Mr. Mustard a very cute father/daughter T-Shirt combo for Father’s Day. I think he liked it – it’s a computer gamer T-shirt for him and a matching one for the the baby. I ordered it about two weeks ago and didn’t know if it would arrive in time, but it arrived on Friday, just in time! I also got him a cool Father-to-Be card! 🙂
In other news, I’m stuck in the nightmare of Bar Exam studying right now- no matter how much I study, it never quite seems to be enough. I tackled Civil Procedure yesterday and today- even though on my study calendar, it’s only budgeted for tomorrow. That is definitely not enough time to master one my most difficult subjects– for me, the substantive law is much easier to get than the procedural. The procedural courses (Civ Pro, Crim Pro, and Evidence) are all incredibly boring and at the same time very difficult. Oh well.
I’m starting to get panicked about not being prepared for the exam- it’s an unending mountain of material to memorize and then apply over 24 hours of testing (8 hrs/day- 3 day exam). So far, I’ve worked on Evidence, Civil Procedure, Constitutional Law, Contracts, Criminal Law, Torts, Remedies, Property, and Criminal Procedure. I have yet to start on Community Property, Corporations, Wills, Professional Responsibility, and Trusts. I’m sure this doesn’t matter to really anyone but me, but it’s just a lot of work- and very, very, very stressful. Arghh.
I usually have about one nervous breakdown/ crying session a day- and then I get better. It’s just hard to lock yourself in a room and study all day, every day- never going outside or doing anything fun. I’ve been feeling sort of sorry for myself- but I usually get over it pretty quickly when I remember that this is only temporary and once I pass the Bar, I’ll be a lawyer for life. So, 5 more weeks of intensive studying is worth it for a career that will open many doors in the future- legal or not. But, even saying that, it’s been difficult. I’ve never put myself through anything this difficult or intense in my life, I’ve definitely never studied this much- and I’m barely keeping up with the recommended study schedule.
Here is a picture of my mom when she was about 8 months pregnant with me! I think we look a lot alike- well, except that she’s younger than me in this picture and has a better tan! Being stuck inside behind a computer and law books hasn’t been too great for my tan this summer!
I got the hotel squared away for the Bar Exam. It’s a three day test, and I have to arrive the day before to check in and get my credentials. So, I’m staying at the hotel for 4 nights total. I’m looking at it as a mini-vacation, since it will be so nice to stay in a hotel. It doesn’t have a pool, but it does have a jacuzzi tub in each room, which will be very relaxing! I’m pretty excited about this mini-vacation- even if I do have to take the Bar while I’m staying there!
Studying is going okay- it’s very stressful and I’m not doing too great at it. If I fail in July, there’s always the February Exam. I keep telling myself that if I don’t pass the first time, then it’s just more practice for the next round. I am getting a little too stressed about it, though. Parts of my hair have turned white- well, only a few strands, but I noticed it and Mr. Mustard did, too! They turned white from the top all the way to the bottom overnight! It’s pretty freaky.
My mom sent me a cool tree in the mail for my graduation- it’s a money tree and it’s supposed to bring good luck, wealth, and happiness! It’s really neat- and the only plant in our whole apartment! I hope I can keep it alive- I’ve never been the best with plants, but I’m going to do my best!
I think the baby is turning into position (upside down) or at least turning around somehow. I’ve been feeling a lot of big movements lately- not kicks or punches exactly- more like awkward whole body movements. Sometimes it can almost hurt! Mr. Mustard felt it last night and he was shocked at the amount of movement and how he could feel body parts pushing up next to my skin. It definitely makes her arrival seem more imminent and real!
Mr. Mustard is liking his new job, which he started yesterday. He says it’s very different from reality editing. I think in some ways it’s probably easier than reality editing, but in some ways it’s harder. Harder because he’s been editing reality now for almost 5 years, and he just started on this, so of course there’s going to be a big learning curve. He also has to do an episode a day on this show, and on The Race he had an episode every 4 weeks or so, I think. So, it’s a much faster turnaround.
I succeeded in getting up earlier this morning- although I did go to bed around 3:30am and didn’t fall asleep until after 4. Hopefully I can stay up all day and then fall asleep when Mr. Mustard falls asleep tonight- which will put me back on a more “normal” schedule!
I’ve decided that buying a house in California right now is not a good idea- there have been doomsayers about the Los Angeles housing market crashing for a long time, but based on the minimal looking I’ve done, it seems like Los Angeles may be in for a major correction in the near future. I don’t think it’s going to hurt us to not buy right away- houses are staying on the market much longer now (months instead of days), and people are already lowering prices like crazy. A lot of people have Adjustable Rate Mortgages (ARMs) or Interest Only Mortgages and are starting to feel the pressure of those interest rates rising. So, as they try to bail out of their houses, the market is going to become flooded with product and prices will decline. This should probably happen in the next couple of years (it’s already starting to happen). So, it doesn’t make sense for us to buy now when prices are so inflated. We can rent comparable places for so much less per month and then save what we would have spent on interest for a down payment. It’s just a matter of being patient, which has never been my strongest suit!
The apartment is becoming more tolerable to me. Maybe it’s because I now realize that the Bar is 6 weeks from today (!) and I have a very long way to go in getting prepared for it. There are thirteen subjects on the Bar, and I’ve reviewed five so far. So, that’s eight left to learn. Plus, I have to practice writing the essays and doing the Performance Test, which is a simulated real-world exercise having little to do with law you already know. There’s also the multiple-choice, which I definitley need to practice more. I tend to overthink that part, and my scores have been less than great thus far. I can always get it down to two answers and then I end up choosing the wrong one without fail! So, yes, lots of work to do. This has been distracting me from worrying too much about moving anytime soon.
What else? Oh- I’ve lost feeling in the smaller toes on my left foot. It’s weird, but I think it has something to do with the pregnancy and I should talk to my doctor about it when I see him next Friday. It feels like they are so swollen that they are cutting off eachother’s circulation. I try to wiggle them a lot to get the blood moving, but they just hurt. I think my sleeping position may have something to do with it. I could try switching sleeping positions, but I’ve been instructed to sleep on my left side because it helps blood flow. It’s also the only sleeping position remotely comfortable anymore, so I’m not changing it. I can’t sleep on my back because that cuts off blood flow to the baby from the weight of the uterus pressing down on a major artery. So- I’m stuck with these toes for now, I guess!
I really do like being pregnant, but I think I’m getting to the uncomfortable stage where I just want to meet our daughter and have the comfort of my body back. It’s amazing to know that she’s growing inside me, and I wouldn’t give that up for anything. I am also really excited to meet her, and having my body back (without the swollen ankles, etc.) will be a really nice perk! I guess I shouldn’t rush things because no matter what, she’s going to be here in about 10 weeks- or maybe even less. Plus, the more quickly time passes, the less time I have to study for the Bar and get ready for her arrival!
Today I’m studing Contracts in the morning- so I guess I should get back to that. It’s a heavy topic- a lot of it centering on Article 2 of the Uniform Commercial Code (UCC). Not exactly fare to keep me alert this morning, but I have to learn it!
Mr. Mustard took this picture of me outside our apartment to mark the 30th week! 10 weeks left until my due date- time is really flying! I was so burned out on studying this morning that I decided to get out of the house for a little bit. We decided to go see Cars, but when we got to the movie theater, it was packed with little kids and their parents who were going to see it, so we opted for the less popular X-Men 3. Of course, Mr. Mustard had already seen it, but he said he didn’t mind seeing it again. I thought it was pretty good. The baby loved it, I think. She was very active during the movie, especially during the exciting bits with lots of music.
One of my goals for this week is to get back on a normal sleep schedule. I have not been able to get to sleep, so every night I end up falling asleep around 3:30 a.m. Then, I wake up every half hour to an hour to go to the bathroom. All of this is not good- especially since the Bar starts at 8 a.m., and I have been getting up around 10 every morning (due to going to bed so late). I think I was just made to stay up late, and so it’s very natural for me to be awake in the middle of the night.
I’ve thought about just staying up all night, not going to sleep, and then trying to fall asleep early the next night to re-set my internal clock. That’s what I usually do when this sort of thing happens, but being pregnant, I don’t want to exhaust myself too much. All the traditional remedies don’t work for me (relaxation tapes, tea, milk before bed, white noise makers, etc.)- trust me, I’ve tried them all multiple times! Things should be easier with Mr. Mustard going back to work on Monday, since he has to be there by 9, so I’ll start getting up with him around 7:30 or 8– which hopefully will do the trick to get me on an earlier schedule.
Well, it’s back to studying for me now. It was nice to get out and have a short break from it by going to the movie!