Well, this week has been a little rough on me. 🙂 Everything is fine with baby…I just think that perhaps my expectations for postpartum recovery were a little ridiculous.
Baby boy is as sweet and adorable as he can be. He’s a dream baby (so far! ha!):
But my recovery hasn’t been so sweet. So far I’ve had a clogged milk duct in my armpit that was the size of a softball, a bad bladder/uti infection, and an awful case of mastitis in the other breast. I tried all the natural remedies to heal those issues. I’ve been working hard on my gut biome/flora for the past six months, and antibiotics basically destroy the healthy bacteria in your intestines. But, ultimately, I decided that antibiotics were discovered for a reason. Mastitis with a high fever is no joke, so yesterday I started a course of antibiotics. Fingers crossed I start to feel better soon.
I think I expected postpartum to be a relief because my pregnancy was so difficult and baby’s delivery was so easy. Ha! It doesn’t work like that. I had hyperemesis gravidarum (HG) for the first 26 weeks of pregnancy, which also caused me to have anemia. And, of course, I had severe/excruciating SPD (symphysis pubis dysfunction) from the beginning of the pregnancy…which put me in a wheelchair/mobility scooter.
My constant companion for outings during my pregnancy (and now!):
I’ve had SPD for all my pregnancies except for Paprika (the first one) … And I think it must be progressive because each time it gets worse.
Anyhoo- this time the SPD isn’t going away. With Ellie (3), it took a few months to resolve postpartum, so I am trying to be patient. (Is there any other option? Ha!)
I have to focus on staying positive, and also staying off of forums and reading articles that say that this could be a lifelong condition… Basically being wheelchair bound for life. There are worse things…I know that! I am so grateful for my mobility scooter (which we bought on Craigslist, of course!) It gives me the freedom to go on my walks with Paprika, to the museum with the family, etc.
Me at the Broad Art museum, when I was pregnant:
So, I’m focusing on healing and staying positive. I’d go through all of this a million times over for any one of our children. I’m really grateful that I get to be their mom and for the health I do have. I never take it for granted!
And of course, these kids make life worth living. Even though pregnancy is never easy (at least for me it’s not – haha) – it has been so worth it each and every time. I’m so happy to have my five little ones earthside, and my four angels in Heaven. They are all so special and important to me!
Until next time…